Discover Your Brain Injury

by Gayathri Bakthavasalu
(Glasgow,UK)

Hello everybody,

I am Gayathri Bakthavasalu,a survivor of a traumatic brain injury(the invisible injury). I was diagnosed with repeated concussion causing brain damage associated with epilepsy making me unconscious for a few days. Headache,difficulty thinking,memory problems(could be challenging for a student), attention deficits,mood swings, frustration, social behaviour,emotional problems and kleptomania were the effects of the Traumatic brain injury(TBI).

Once I felt conscious I opened up into a new world. I nearly lost my personality and character.I did not know who I was. I kept rethinking and rediscovering myself. I was confused about why there were people around me and felt like an alien.My sense of smell was very weak. My brain was working hard and I was not in peace. It takes great courage and determination for us to face each new day. Simple things are now complicated. It makes you feel suicidal with little hope. Not able to speak to anyone in the fear of being treated strange or otherwise we struggle with our own emotions,thoughts and decisions.

I was totally taken aback by how a disturbed trigger of electric pulses could affect patterns in your brain structure. It is so hard to live in a way that you would not want to but have to. They would be the darkest days of your life but remember we live under the sun. Sessions of pranic healing helped me to boost the confidence levels.

I know it really hurts not living up yourself but we have to keep moving. It is painful with teary eyes, leaving us in loneliness. But believe me,I am a survivor and you can just try to do something that you like to overcome your distress. It may be visiting your close friend for a tea or a movie,reading your favourite authors,travelling around or any passion that you share. Time was and is the best healer with the brain injury. It may take months or years to go but its not too far. For one day or the other once you are out of it, it will make you feel special. Nevertheless you will not stop thanking your family and friends for their unconditional love and support. I wish all brain injury survivors a fast recovery and loads of hope in life.